The problem with being often cheerful is that nobody will believe you when it’s your turn to be depressed.
People will be more confused than bothered when they see you cry.
People will think you’ll get over your depression fast and easily, so there’s no need for them to make an extra effort to cheer you up.
Even when they do try to make you smile at least, they give up easily when you can’t force yourself to smile.
It’s as if you don’t have the right to be depressed.
You can’t be depressed.
You never get depressed.
So what do you do instead?
No answer. You’re that depressed. You don’t even want to talk to yourself the way you do whenever you’re bored. You can’t even hear the voices in your head – the ones that are arguing over whether you should let go or not. You, dare I say, don’t even bother to pray even when you know you should.
And then Bachelor Girl’s “Buses and Trains” starts playing on Myx…as if on cue.
“…so I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love, which is kinda the same
I’ve sunk out at sea, crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again…”